MA Shadow

I moved to Portugal in the winter of 2022. A friend of mine was wanting to leave due a multitude of issues.

• Politics has gotten crazy
• People have gotten crazy
• Medical expense have gotten crazy

It was time to make a change. We navigate the immigration process, home buying process, car purchasing process.

I was born in a Portuguese colony to Portuguese Parents but I am still dealing with officially becoming a Portuguese Citizen. Bureaucracy at it’s finest.

I am happy that we made the move I have never been so relaxed. It has allow me to focus on goals that I have kept putting off due to everyday living.

Life is great here

Welcome to Tony’s Dating App Show.
Main Character: Tony – a Sigma Male and also Myers-Briggs’ INFJ type.
We follow Tony as he traverses the World of Online Dating,

The show is currently in Hiatus while we work on Goals and Projects, returning Fall 21.
For feedback see Mashadow, standard Dom.

For your enjoyment some memorable episodes:

1.08 – Babysitter Needed – Tony meets 50 yr old mother who is actually 38, looking for father figure for her son…while she goes to school.

2.05 – Divorced, Separated, Menage a Trois? – Tony meets a divorced Woman, who turns out to be married, then Tony meets the husband.

4.10 – Care for a little Murder – In the season finale, Tony meets woman with hidden plans for murder.
Cliffhanger: Late night phone call – “Tony, I need a lawyer”.

I have tried and tried shopping from a catalog. So many items to choose. I come close to choosing after reading about it. Sometimes the description is so enticing that I want to choose it right away. I come close then I see another item it starts to interest me

I find these items to be more with what I am looking for but then I find something that I don’t like then I am back to the previous item. Then when I am ready  to make the choice it’s out of stock or unavailable.

I hate catalog shopping there’s nothing like actually see the item, t it feeling it. I really don’t know how people can make a crucial decision on an item that they see in a catalog.

There’s items are big ones, curvy one, petite ones and just right ones. The items come in splashes of colors: White, Black, Brown, Red, Yellow even no color at all or all the colors.

How am I suppose to choose.

I keep looking but not finding what I am looking for. I don’t know what I am expecting to find. I just keep searching but finding nothing.

I am looking for my wonder of finding something new. My mind continues to keep me going never giving up,

I am looking for anything that will keep me moving forward and try not to use all my lives that I have left.

What I am looking for, I don’t know. It could be looking for love and passion from a good woman. Life has shorten for me.

So now I am looking for things that make me happy whether it’s real or not. I am rely on my imagination to give me what I am looking for. I am as happy as I can be for not having what I have been looking for.

Looking and Looking for all that I can do.

Looking Forwards…….

Today, I did a Meetup on Painting. It was a beach scene at Midnight with wonderful blacks and blues for the sky and ocean with white for the waves any shades of yellow for the grass. It was a wonderful scene.

I prepare myself the previous evening by listening to ocean waves to get myself in the right mind. I got to the class with plenty time to even get a cup of coffee at Starbucks and the artist style (Wilson Bickford) that we were going to follow.

I got to class, which had about seven students. The instructor had us do some prep work on the canvas. Just that little bit was enough to easy my mind but I could see my perfectionist streak trying to break through but I was able to fight it back. Something I did repeatedly for the next four hours.

We started by using a dark blue brush horizontally down a third of then we transition to a mixture of white and blue to lighten the sky down to another third of the canvas.  We add white horizontal layer of white to simulate the waves at the horizon. Then we added a white moon at the transition from dark sky to light sky. Then we add white waves in where the moon cast light. The bottom third we add some sand with pebbles along with grass with stalks reaching the sky.

The next thing I new the class was over. I really enjoyed it considering it was my first time painting. I didn’t let my analytical side take over, it tried but I prevailed. I know it’s not perfect but It’s fine with me. The Journey was worth it.